Christmas is almost past and with its passing I cannot stop contemplating change, change in the world, change in myself and within my relationships. Jesus came into this world, born a bastard, to transform the way in which we all live.
How is it that I live? Selfishly…yes…sinfully…yes. I cover about every negative aspect a human being can have and then some.
It seems I am being called to a more contemplative life, outside of the negativity that is plaguing this world. I desire to withdraw from this world and live the life of a monk. However, this is impossible for several reasons… I often wonder what that looks like in the world…a contemplative within society.
It always bothered me that Merton gave up…and ran to the monastery.